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Monday, December 22, 2008
Bittersweet, and I don't mean chocolate
Today was the day,, "T" went home to her mom. I braved the roads to the ferry this morning, did the round trip (5 hours return), then it was fog and snow all the way home. Started out at 10:30am, got home just before 7pm. It was sooooo heartwarming to see mother and daughter reunited in time for Christmas, but heartwrenching to return home without her. Hence,, bittersweet. Nothing in this world makes me happier than to see my daughter and granddaughter happy, together, content. Unfortunatly for me, this means I have a huge hole in my heart that won't be filled until I see them again. It's not like they live in another country, or another planet for that matter, but,,,, that stupid ferry can cost an arm and a leg to travel on. There are rumours of a bridge, but I can't see that happening in my life time. I lived on the island for 17 years, and only came back to the mainland just over 2 years ago. I know I could move back, but at what point do you live your life for you, not your kids. You also have to hit a point where you accept your kids lives are seperate from your own and they need to move on as well. We have phones, we have Facebook, we have msn and webcams so it is not complete cut off, but ooooooooh the hugs, the "good morning Grandma" the "good night Grandma", I can't bring myself to walk into her bedroom just yet. That is when the tears will come. OMG, I sound like I have lost her forever,, lol. I just need to indulge in a little self pity, then I will be fine... and oh ya, maybe some chocolate! Maybe bittersweet stands for chocolate after all.
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Yeah goodbye is always hard. It is great that she got to go home. She got her wish.
Now go bundle up and have some sweets. Perhaps some hot coco!
I'm sorry she had to leave. Its hard and say yo say good-bye, but its really just "see you later".
I hope that you had some yummy chocolate and coffee and that you are in a better place:)
I have talked to her 4 times already today, she had to make sure her "stuffies" were behaving. I told her I thought they were jumpin on the bed but they quited down by the time I went in and checked on them. She gave me the complete run down on which ones were bad (they are the ones that apparently mess up the bedroom while she is sleeping) so I need to keep a careful eye on them,, lol. Laughing and crying at the same time is soooo wierd!
living life for your kids? how interesting to get the parent's point of view on this!! i often feel like i'm living life for my parent!!
Hope you have a Merry Christmas and all the best in 2009!!
You know it's funny you would say that about living your life for yourself or for your kids. When my parents decided to be full time RVer's, my grandmother and my aunt got upset and said they were abandoning their kids. We are all adults, and we all thought it was cool and they shouldn't just sit in their house and wait for us to visit.
So, I know what you mean by that - it's probably hard, but you have to have something for yourself, too.
Anyway, I really stopped by to wish you a Merry Christmas! I hope it's a good one!
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