First of, I need to clarify a couple of things from yesterday. After I read my post again this morning, I realized it came across as more of a downer than I intended.
I do have two arms connected to my body, but after a car accident, I lost the use of my right shoulder. This had a domino effect that makes the use of my right arm very difficult, if not impossible at times. It also effects my neck, causing very painful muscle spasms. I had surgery last summer, but unfortunatly it didn't fix it. At some point I will have injections in my neck to help the muscles stop spasming, just waiting for all the referals/paperwork to go through. One of the options for injections is Botox! Hmmm,, can they slide the needle a little more to the face by accident..lol...
Now back to the void, I think yesterday was just a step towards dealing with "T" going home. I have always been an active mom/grandma. With my move to the mainland that has dwindled due to distance/ferry travel etc. I still travel back and forth as much as possible, and they do come here, but with "T" living here for the last 6 months, I felt like I had a purpose again that I had been missing so much. Yesterday just hit home harder because of the kids going back to school.
Last night, I decided to concentrate on me. I have a calender, and since I love love love to plan, I am going to fill it with goals! I have promised my granddaughter to come over for all her field trips, and any Pro-D days at school I will be there so my daughter doesn't have to miss work. Those days will be filled in first of course! After that, I will plan my gym days and physiotherapy days. From there I will have one day a week that I meet up with a friend for a lunch or dinner or movie date.
Once a week I will pick a library day, one of my favourite places with a coffee shop and fireplace.
I will pick one craft a month to do. I had suggestions for sewing etc, which yes, I know how to do, but my arm can only do so much, and I tend to avoid out of frustration. I hate to start something and then have to walk away because my arm doth protest to much. I realized that the only person putting a dead line on anything is me, so even if I only do 10 minutes at a stretch, I won't beat myself up about it.
Of course, on top of all this, I have my day to day life to live. My significant other works shift work, so we spend odd hours together sometimes, but that just adds to the fun.
I don't need life planned down to the last minute, but I think my calender will put some structure back in it, and that is what I need right now. When you work, you know ahead of time you will be getting up, going to work, having some form of routine. Now that I am not taking "T" to school, my routine is gone. I want some of it back! I am taking it back! I am taking ME BACK!
I AM FILLING MY VOID!! Ok, now to get some more coffee, I think that should be the first thing on my calender every day,, lol..!
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4 comments:
Do you have a digital camera?
You could always join a 365 photo blogging or even a writing everyday bloggy thing. I know blogging can always help fill the ME time here!
Great idea! I might actually do this myself. Then I won't feel so overwhelmed on my days off!!
I really do hope that your arm and neck are able to function better with the PT!
And, caffeine is always a must first thing when I get up:)
Yeah! For the positive thinking! That will help so much... When I get the down days, I find something to do that will make me feel productive. After, of course, I have had my coffee :-)
Coffee, yes! Mine bit the dust a few days ago, and I searched for one online only to find the one I wanted wouldn't ship for 3 weeks.
Three weeks making coffee the old fashioned way (pouring boiling water through the filter, then using the microwave) was not going to cut it.
So I got another el cheapo at Wal-Mart. It brews and that's really all that matters, isn't it?
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